CONTINUES FROM THE LAST DAY.....
Festive Seasons:- So, I was a very random, having no goal, no exposure, kind of person.
My father was very dominating, having presence kind of person. His energy, his enthusiasm didn't create much of passion in me. I kind of became a passive person.
Don't be get distracted with personality topic.here the subject is festive seasons.
So I was not much into the worshiping. We had not much money initially and our more than modest background was also not living us. We were very wary in spending money. Mother was strict in that. She knew the saving but not was much knowledgeable about proper spending or investment.
So earlier, festive seasons were very modest like we were. 3 or 4 seasons were celebrated with modest spending. But gradually I started withdrew my liking for these festive season. Likeness for these festival started getting waned. Don't that time, what it was which is pushing me from these festive environments.
I used to get irritated with the full volume loudspeaker, constant chanting, total chattering going on, time wasting. BUT I had not that confidence that time. I used to question me. I thought why I am different from all my surrounding. I was not like them. I wanted to do something constructive. but I had no way out for this. I had no exposure, knowledge, capital, background for this.
Now when I have gained confidence due to getting job, now I do things which I want to do. To envisage things and getting it completed gives u a tremendous high, it inflates your confidence to a very higher notch.That's what happening to me.
Now I have opinion, plan, decision making ability, attitude, sincerity, confidence, vision. which were all together missing earlier.and this is what making my result very modest.
I want to just do something alone or with some closed one some modest constructive things and keep doing my main things regularly irrespective of these festive seasons. just good food, smart grooming, have a sit with closed ones for a short time. this is what a festive seasons all about for me. exploring things and adding in your life in what you are comfortable.
Festive Seasons:- So, I was a very random, having no goal, no exposure, kind of person.
My father was very dominating, having presence kind of person. His energy, his enthusiasm didn't create much of passion in me. I kind of became a passive person.
Don't be get distracted with personality topic.here the subject is festive seasons.
So I was not much into the worshiping. We had not much money initially and our more than modest background was also not living us. We were very wary in spending money. Mother was strict in that. She knew the saving but not was much knowledgeable about proper spending or investment.
So earlier, festive seasons were very modest like we were. 3 or 4 seasons were celebrated with modest spending. But gradually I started withdrew my liking for these festive season. Likeness for these festival started getting waned. Don't that time, what it was which is pushing me from these festive environments.
I used to get irritated with the full volume loudspeaker, constant chanting, total chattering going on, time wasting. BUT I had not that confidence that time. I used to question me. I thought why I am different from all my surrounding. I was not like them. I wanted to do something constructive. but I had no way out for this. I had no exposure, knowledge, capital, background for this.
Now when I have gained confidence due to getting job, now I do things which I want to do. To envisage things and getting it completed gives u a tremendous high, it inflates your confidence to a very higher notch.That's what happening to me.
Now I have opinion, plan, decision making ability, attitude, sincerity, confidence, vision. which were all together missing earlier.and this is what making my result very modest.
I want to just do something alone or with some closed one some modest constructive things and keep doing my main things regularly irrespective of these festive seasons. just good food, smart grooming, have a sit with closed ones for a short time. this is what a festive seasons all about for me. exploring things and adding in your life in what you are comfortable.
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